Why I must make lists...

After rediscovering my long-lost blog spot today, I realize, for the probable hundredth time, that I say I am going to do this-that and of course, the other thing, and seldom follow through.

Let's get a few things straight for those who may be wondering, first, I am NOT lazy. No. Quite the contrary. I put too much on my plate and fail to see some of those things through to the end, I like to think of those as my peas. Second, I am realistic, but my bar is set very high. With those things being said, I can offer myself and perhaps my reader only one solution to this conundrum, lists.

I hate to admit that I am a nervous wreck of an over-achiever and get strung out when things aren't just so. I like them done my way and even if help is available or shoved in my face, I'd rather run through the briar patch chasing the mystical rabbit without my shoes on until it's (whatever it is) exactly how I envisioned it. Feet bleeding be damned. ( I also hate to admit here, but see it as only fair to be honest, that I LOVE to say- I did it by myself thank you very much.) So a list person I must remain.

What is this list person? Well- she's anal, that's given. She is also- gulp- structured to have things go according to the predestined plan only determined by her, or else the day is shot to hell. She is easily disappointed (naturally) by others shortcomings- which, are only measurable by the extreme high standards that she creates. "Witch!" "Witch!" I CAN hear you! But don't be mislead, she is also kind, generous and works very hard to make sure everyone around her is having a great time- even at her own expense. The lists serve as her morning cups of coffee. It is by them that she can begin her day.

What does she list? EVERYTHING. What bills are to be paid on that day, where she has to go, where she wants to go, appointments, whom she has to call, whose birthday it is even if they haven't spoken in awhile, what Hallmark holiday it is, which book she should read, which books she should buy, what to eat and on and on. It is a living nightmare.

There is a payoff however. She gets it all done and has a sense of accomplishment. If its on the list it might as well be written in the good book. The trick is to pencil in. Exercise, that must be penciled in, as well as homework assignments. I guess "write on your blog" needs to be penciled into the list once or twice a week as well.