I'm at work, sort of. Just like with confidence I can say, I'm here but I'm not. I'm really tired and wishing that the day was over because I feel burnt out.
It is one of those days that I really hate, I haven't had one in awhile so I can't complain too much, but I still hate it. I am having those feelings of sadness, longing for something more, tired, bored, out of place, out of mind, and just lonesome I guess.
A lot of things in my life lately have been going right but some things have not. I find it's similar to work, I do lots of things well and great, and there are a few things I still need to learn. The real problem is I get no real satisfaction from those great things when I know that there are things that need more work. I am my own worst critic, I know it, but I can't change it.
So whats with the melancholy today? Beats me if you want the honest truth. I have been hoping to hear from someone who I haven't heard from in a long time and I don't know if or when I will. This person was such a friend to me and then things in our lives changed and now I haven't heard from said friend for way too long. I miss them and wish I could tell them how I feel but guess what, I won't. Like my inability to accept fault and move on, I am full of pride, a whole damn lot of it.
I'm a bit restless today as well. I feel like going out and painting the town, but with what, the huge frown on my face?? I don't know why but the idea of going home and hanging out is really depressing me today. I usually long for such a laid back end to my day but today I just want something new and exciting, a huge dosage of pick- me- up.
I am wishing for the fairy tale today. I'm a princess un- beknowest to myself and my prince has yet to rescue me from my hard Cinderellaian lifestyle and to take me away to my castle of all dreams come true. How pittiful.
It's almost four..... but doesn't the saying go, I don't care, it's five-o-clock somewhere???
Anyone want to meet me for a drink?
Friday, September 21, 2007
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